Hello World!!

Its been a really long while since I've last wriiten. One might ask, why the sudden interest now?
I guess thats how a blog is, you write when you please!!
Now that my excuse has convinced you, lets come to the real reason why I started now all of a sudden. A lot of things have happened over the last 2 years. Finally I have ended up in a PSU with a more than decent job. Yet, the events over the last couple of years have left me slightly disturbed from my equillibrium, in the sense that my life now doesnt exactly represent what I imagined 2 years ago. After a lot of introspection, I realised that I have only myself to blame. I havent had to work too hard for anything. I had chosen the easy way all the time. Although I have dreams, they are not fuelled by my own passion but by someone else's expectations.

Till some time ago I was very happy that I had managed to move passionately towards a goal all thanks to one special person. Sadly after that person left my life, I was again back to square one. My regret being, that I can only be at my best when I am working for the sake of someone. My self motivation is always zero and I am constantly dependant on something or someone to provide me the same. When I look back, the previous blogs were all the result of me being inspired or motivated by someone to write them.

However, now I feel its different, I started writing this just with the thought of improving my english, not for someone else's sake but for my own. Somehow the last 2 years of introspection has generated some sense in me and god forbid I get a new girlfriend :) !!!